"It isn't for the moment you are struck that you need courage, but for the long uphill climb back to sanity and faith and secutity." - Anne Morrow Lindbergh
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I would not have thought it possible to have two days in a row like yesterday! Trip to Birmingham was another set of mishaps and challenges...and not just for myself, but for my case manager and the receptionist who rescheduled my tests as I made the hour and a half drive to the rehab outpatient clinic. I was so upset at the obstacles that delayed my departure. Again, I was greeted with kindness and compassion even though I know my inability to arrive on time caused several others to rearrange their time on my behalf. I guess I'm still not getting the message all of this hassle is trying to teach me.
I am so glad I was able to get the testing and doctor's appointment completed during this one visit. The tests revealed some important information needed to direct a portion of my follow-up health care. I am so appreciative of the way everyone pulled the afternoon together. Is the lesson to be learned that when I need help, it will be there? Maybe I'm receiving back some of the compassion and care that I tried to give others during my thirty years of nursing practice.
Obstacles arise, issues appear, life happens...maybe this is my struggle made visible, to accept the reality that life is not a smooth ride. Perhaps this is the rollercoaster that has replaced the amusement park variety that I used to enjoy. What would happen if I embraced these bumps in the road to see where they take me? Maybe the ultimate issue is acceptance of "what is" or curiosity about what might be if I release my death grip on control...
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