"Scientists announced today that the have discovered a cure for apathy. However, they claim no one has shown the slightest interest in it." - George Carlin ------------------------------
This grizzly bear's eyes could be mine for the last few days. I realized today that I have not been out of my home except to take our dog out as needed since Friday (four days). I started canceling planned activities Wednesday and bumped goals from day to day since Friday also.
Still doing AM & PM meditations and stretches, chipping away at necessaries, and am not lying in bed beating myself up over anything in particular. Perhaps this is a "normal" slump, however, I would prefer to not be feeling this way!
It makes sense in many ways when I look back at the last two weeks. Just the same, when I awaken and decide that it's not worth the effort to get cleaned up and dressed because the day will just slip by and it's time to do it again...ding, ding, ding...the alarm bell goes off and red flags wave. I can easily slip into that valley that is hard to climb out of again.
I wonder sometimes what keeps me from living day to day on a predictably even keel rather than the push, push, push flurry of activity followed by a detached lull? Time for a turn around and to get back out in the world like everyone else. Looking for that new "normal" to settle in consistently, regardless of day to day physical, emotional, and spiritual fluctuations.
Is this the adjustment process seeking equilibrium? I certainly hope that one day, sooner than later, balance will be found again. Until then, guess I'll just have to give myself a wake up call. Life has more to offer than this silly struggle!!!
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