"To be awake is to be alive. Time is but the stream I go a-fishing in. Every man is a builder of a temple, called his body, to the god he worships, after a style purely his own, nor can he get off by hammering marble instead. We are all sculptors and painters, and our material is our own flesh and blood and bones. And nobleness begins at once to refine a man's features, any meaness or sensuality to imbrute them. Rather than love , than money, than fame, give me truth. - Henry David Thoreau, Walden, 1854------------------
"...I treat my body like a temple, you treat yours like a tent..." - Jimmy Buffett, Fruitcakes
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It has been a long time since insomnia has visited and taken it's toll! An occasional visit is tolerable. My mind has been filled with totally unnecessary "what ifs" tonight that have sent me web surfing rather than sleeping. Wednesday I will have a cystoscopy to evaluate the cause of some bleeding that happens sporadically and the increased difficulty with catheter changes over the past few months.
Ultrasound and KUB at the outpatient rehab clinic a couple of weeks ago show no bladder or kidney stones, yeah!!! They did identify a small tumor inside my right kidney, a benign neoplasm called an angiomyolipoma. Common in women over fifty in the right kidney, interesting. Of course, I had to find out more, thus the web searching. I want to know what questions to ask and be able to understand the answers. I also want to be reassured that this tumor is truly a benign, slow-growing mass and know if further testing should be done to provide that reassurance.
Good reason to have this night of awakeness, as long as it does not drift back into a habitual change again. Sleep times have been off again too. I've noticed it is related to late night, early morning hour visits and "sleepovers" by my college student daughter. It is hard for me to wind down and sleep when she's awake. Oh, well, it is temporary and it is good to see her for a bit after her trip to Tuscaloosa for the football game this weekend.
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